Tomorrow is the first time I'll have seen the girl that I was talking about in my first topic "Real life issues". I can't say that I'm relaxed.
I am an absolute master at a Rubik's Cube, one of the hardest puzzles known to modern day man. It has over 10 gagillion possible solutions, and I can solve one from any point in 30 seconds. I know the patterns, the trends, the signs showing of what might happen next. I am a complete master of the cube.
The reason why I bring a Rubik's Cube into the picture is an old friend saw me today playing with one. He was amazed that I could solve the thing so fast, how seemingly impossible it was. The connection between Rubik's cubes and dating wasn't made clear to me until my friend's girlfriend came up and flirted with him. He kissed her, had a good time, laughed, etc. I was amazed at how he was working with her so well. Then it hit me.
To him, the Rubik's Cube seemed like an impossible task, unable to be accomplished. To me, getting a girlfriend was an impossible task, unable to be accomplished. I was an absolute master of a Rubik's Cube, but he was an absolute master of women. Just as how I saw patterns forming in the Rubik's Cube and knew what would occur next, he saw patterns forming in the reaction between him and his girlfriend and he knew what would be next.
The real mind stumper is that I have access to any girl in the world that I want to talk to, and he has access to any Rubik's Cube in the world that he could ever want to solve. However, the girls would turn me down and he would spend hours trying to solve the thing to no avail. If we both have the same capabilites and access to those items, what made one of us better than the other? Simple: Experience. I am eighteen years old and I have never been on a date with a girl. He is eigtheen years old as well and has never solved a Rubik's Cube. I on the contrary have solved many Rubik's Cubes, while he has obtained every girl he ever set out for.
So, I have decided that no matter what I may feel tomorrow, no matter how scared I am, no matter how much I shake or how slow the hours before the event crawl by, I will ask her for a date. If she accepts, I will no longer be extremely inexperienced in asking a girl to a date and I will have a slight confidence boost. If she declines, I will no longer be so afraid of rejection because it has happened.
I am a martial artist (1st Degree Black Belt) and have been trained my entire martial art's life to be unafraid of anything. I had believed for a time that I had conquered by fears. I was wrong. I may not be scared of any opponent, but I am still terrified of asking a girl out. So, I absolutely must ask her out on a date tomorrow. It will do two good things for me:
1.) Give me experience.
2.) Help conquer my fear.
I ask that any of you who remotely care about this topic pray for my success at attempting something I have never tried before. I ask that you also pray for the "yes" answer to the question I am going to ask.
Thank you for reading this far. This post has helped me regain some form of calm.
Edited, Mon Oct 10 21:34:52 2005 by Shaolinz