Now I feel I should add something, mostly because work is slow
zukunftsangst wrote:
How you felt when you met and split with your first love
Met my first love at 16, almost 17. She was two years older, and the sister of a girl my age whom I had a crush on. Her name was Christine, and she was the first of many bad relationships with Christines
The entire thing started off poorly: how we met was at a group mini-golfing session. Christine and her friend came along with her sister and a bunch of our friends, and we pretty quickly broke off into two separate groups divided by the ages. At the end of the day, her sister came over and said "Hey, my sister thinks you're pretty cute and was wondering if you wanted to go out to a movie with her sometime."
Not exactly what you want to hear from the girl you have a crush on, but oh well
I agreed, and then freaked out for then next week because I realized
I had no freaking idea what this girl looked like because I had been looking at her sister instead the entire time. I was a bundle of nerves that first date; luckily she recognized me when we met up, so that crisis was averted... then there was the movie. Do we hold hands? Do I make a move? Do I kiss her!? I was scared out of my mind. Luckily, before the movie started she used this oh-so-seductive line on me:
"By the way, I have strep throat, so we shouldn't, like, share drinks or anything."
Whew! I was simultaneously relieved... and disappointed.
Anyway, more dates came and went. Over the next few months we graduated to kissing, then touching, then declothing. She was my significant first for almost every milestone. When I finally told her I loved her, I tried to be romantic: the plan was to take her to a lake, watch the sunset together, and say the words. Instead, we arrived after the sun had already set, freezing (it was winter in MA), and said the words with teeth chattering. It was still cute, but a total fail. Losing my (well, our) virginity was pretty much just as bad. Her bursting into tears ended the encounter in a couple of seconds as I tried to console her. That was horrible.
I can't help but laugh at how much I overthought and failed at romance in those days. I'm quite a bit better now
The end was pretty bad, but ended up being the best thing that happened to me. She went off to college, being two years older and all, but we decided to stay together. Two or three weeks in, she was acting differently during our phone calls. I finally worked up the nerve to ask if something was wrong, and she said:
"Well... what do you think if I kissed another guy?"
-Silence. She continued:
"I mean, I met a nice guy at a party and we ended up kissing. But I still love you; could we still be dating while I'm at home?"
Yeah, no dice. Ended the relationship. I was crushed. She had cheated on me previously (kissing with an ex), but this was the final straw. I cried for a week. I've had bad break-ups since then, but that really tore my heart apart in a way that felt more painful than anything since (the way only a teenage boy in puppy love and feel pain). But after a while I got over it. I decided not to look for love, and sure enough, soon after there were multiple girls interested in me (most of which I only found out had crushes YEARS later
). As for Christine, she ended up marrying the guy she kissed at that party, and they're still married (hopefully happily) today. Haven't talked to her for years, but I wish her the best; I know I would have been miserable with her if we still had been together today, so all's well that ends well
And there's the
first third love story! Better?
Edit: I R 2 slow
Edited, Aug 3rd 2011 1:41pm by LockeColeMA