I'm sorry for your lost, Nexus.
I find the waiting eats at you far more then finding out of a sudden death. At some point each illness comes with the question will this time be the one that will take a family or friend away forever.
Enjoy life and family when you can and don't dwell over the times you couldn't be there for whatever reasons. There comes a time, when you find suddenly everyone around you are now old and the calls come far too often.
Wither it was getting a call early in the morning, during a vacation you felt guilty taking, or having a love one call you and hearing how they think it may be the last chance for you to talk, hurts.
Though my uncle asked us not to come up for my aunts service, I do hope to be able to visit him in Maine later this year.
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In the place of a Dark Lord you would have a Queen! Not dark but beautiful and terrible as the Morn! Treacherous as the Seas! Stronger than the foundations of the Earth! All shall love me and despair! -ElneClare
This Post is written in Elnese, If it was an actual Post, it would make sense.