Like, when you get depressed and stuffs, what do you think about? How do you feel about yourself? How does your physical/mental behavior change, etc.?
I guess my thoughts are pretty selfish.
Somehow, being bored for me usually leads to being sad. I start to think about how I'll never be what I want to be (I'll never have optimal weight, shape, I'll never be smarter than everyone else). I'll never meet that perfect guy. I'll never find a meaning in for myself. Never a reason to keep ticking. I'll never be able to do everything I want to.
I usually go eat a banana. I'll stop wearing shirts and underwear and just wear my jackets. I let my facial hair grow out. I drink and I starve myself. I take sleeping pills.
It seems so typical when you type it down.