For those who ever wished bad things upon me.Follow

"I've never actually had a real ****** with you"

Nexa

Was she a man?

ouch

"I was the man in the burlap mask that night"

Just thinking about that story makes me laugh...you know, cause it was Bodhi and not me.

Nexa

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I was head over heels for the girl, since the first day I met her till the day we broke up. Despite the petty sh'it I ******* about on forums and with friends I always woke up next to her feeling like the luckiest guy. Never really felt like that with any girl before. Obviously she was the wrong person and didn't feel the same which sucks enough.

I don't think I am verbose enough or have enough distance to accurately describe what she said and how it hurt. Boiled down and reduced of its essence she said that I am everything a girl wants. Smart, funny, interesting, fun to hang around, attentive, a sexual dynamo etc and she really liked me but she didn't love me and that in the end the past 3 years have been her dealing with the fact that I am exactly what she wanted but I don't provide the 'spark', and that the last three years have been an exercise in her trying to learn to love me or some craziness like that. That isn't it at all, in fact it sounds kind of lame and completely failing to grasp it but that's the best I can encapsulate it. It wasn't a 'it's not you, it's me' speech at all. Which is kind of how it comes out in text.


Really sucked at the time, the good thing is that it burnt out any residual feelings I had for the girl that were making me feel like *****.

"You're everything I want, but I don't want you"? Sounds like a Meatloaf song.

Unless you can milk the story for sympathy sex

Well Bhodi, take it from me, now is the time to embark on a half-decade of alcohol-fueled misogyny, punishing all of the gender for the failures of one, with your *****, of course. It's done wonders for me. I've never been so emotionally available.

You're a girl right?

There is a small part of me that knows that I could save it. Given enough talking I could convince her to work things out. After all a relationship is all about work, there are good times and bad times and it requires maintenance to make things work. We definitely had more good times than bad times. I honestly could do it, given a chance.

But I won't. It is over. It is for the best. I've been a suck for too long and instead of ripping the bandaid off and dealing with the pain I have dragged it out and made it worse.

/wrist

eh, you're no fun when you're cooporative..

like most of my dates