I actually made fun of my friends for smoking, and refused them and pointed out that I had asthma and didn't want cancer ect....
It was total curiosity
(and stupidity). Here;s the run down.
Best friend and I are on bikes heading somewhere.
we stop at a store.
He asks me to hold his lit Marlboro Light as he goes in.
I drag off of it, and I DO NOT cough, or hack , or gag, or die.
this surprised me.
i smoke off of it again.
i got
lightheaded as hell
(this is pre-weed year of 14-ish) As far as i was concerned in my young idiocy I was HIGH. REALLY HIGH!! OMG LIKE JIM MORRISON AND sh*t!! YEAHHHHHH
THIS MEANt to me, that every single person who was a smoker was really just getting high.
THAT was the secret. That as why they were doing it. I figured it out!! My friends dad.... cops, bus drivers, everybody!!
SO i ask him for another one wehn he comes out, and we ride our way homes on bikes and I am swurving and euphoric.
The next day I bought a pack of Newports and wehn to a party and finished the pack that night.
The next morning I literally for the first time in my life had trouble breathing as if my lungs were swollen.
I continued smoking anyway. Wasn't to be cool, it was to be self destructive. we cikd aregue whether or not I was being self destructive to be cool or not, but I don't think so.
and still no nicoteen has entered my body this day
Edited, Sep 27th 2006 at 3:27pm PDT by Kelvyquayo