2 years ago this past May. Holding my uncle's hand as the cancer that had ravaged his body finally took his life. Telling him it was ok, while he cried big wet tears down his yellowed cheeks. Listening to the rattling of his lungs as the morphine took effect to take away the pain that had taken him from the man he used to be and made him just a hollow shell.
My junior year in high school. Hearing the codes being called over the ICU loud speakers, knowing that it was my best friend leaving us. He'd been in an accident and had rolled 100ft on his head, severe brain damage, his heart wouldnt accept the pace maker. Not being able to be with him in the end because it caused him to get excited and they wanted his mind/brain to heal. Waiting those long 3 days in the ICU, camped out on those cramped chairs, holding his mom's hand and talking of better times. They sent me to go get his parents who were outside taking a breather. I could hear the nurses yelling back and forth. I found his dad, his mom had left to go pick up his sister from school. The look on his dad's face when he told us all to go home. The tears, I hit the floor screaming. I dont remember anything else till we were outside and they were trying to calm me down. I looked up and there was his Mom, she KNEW what had happened.
Flash forward a few days. I break down again as they are putting him in the ground. My best friend. I still miss him. I'll always miss him. I hate that I'm starting to not be able to hear his voice in my memory anymore. I still remember the last time I saw him before the accident. His big brown baggy corduroy jeans and orange Dukes of Hazzard shirt. It was the first day of us being more than just best friends, I'd finally agree'd to be his girlfriend after years of him asking. He started asking me when I was in 7th grade if I'd be his girl friend. I loved that boy. I always worried though that if I said yes, we'd no longer be best friends.
Edited, Sep 5th 2006 at 5:53pm EDT by Katie