The verdict is in I'm going utterly insane. I have more money than I know what to do with; and all the fun toys that accompany wealth. Despite it all I'm bound to the business and can only seem to get excited about making that next 15k monthly. What the f*ck is up? I should be feeling relieved that I no longer have to worry about house payments, car payments, school loans; but I can't. I'm 30 and while i'm in great shape my hair is turning grey from the stress of the business and I have the shakes; i've completely stopped drinking any kind of alcohol, 2 months completely sober in just 2 short weeks. And why do I have fond memories of times when I seriously wondered what the h*ll I was going to be eating at the end of the week w/o any cash; or grilling outside because I couldn't afford my utilities bill?
F*ck you all.
Varus