End of an eraFollow

I sit here before you leaden with guilt and shrouded within discontent. For you see,I let the overpowering clout of addiction clasp its iron grip around my conciousness which set into motion a self propeled delusion that has lasted until this very day.

Thinking back on that enamored autumn day six years ago I can hardly come to terms with myself. A day unlike any other. A day in which I kissed the lips that would plauge my thoughts, actions, and behavior for years to come. In hindsight I wonder where I would be today if I had not decided to sojourn with "the one" that had so unknowingly enticed my palate with the infection in which I speak so loathedly of. I curse him! I spit upon his very existance. Alas, I cannot blame him. For I know it was me and me alone that walked through that door of compliance. He just told me where the key was under the mat, so to speak.

So where does this leave me? It would be easier to subtract from the list the non accomplishments that have left my soul in an array of disbelief than try to formulate a coisive aurgument for anything I had attempted to accomplish in the last six years.
For christ sake, I quit smoking after thirteen years of that "pack a day" habit in less time it took me to subjugate this erroneous avocation.

But today I sit before you absolved of my sin. I seek forgivness in the light of humanity and acceptance back into the world of men. Although I will make my thirty second'ith trip around the sun next month, and that my marriage is on the verge of collapse, and that for so long I neglected my skills as an artisan to which have receded into infancy, and my well being is in gross neglect, and I have not worked tward any semblence of a career since the infestation took hold of my conciousness...

I now wonder if I can bring my self back from the brink of dispair. Will I beable to resolve my marriage woes and endow my significant other with a sense of compliance and prove that I have cut the stem at the root? When one crys wolf too many times they realize all too late that they have aggrevied the sacred endowment of trust, in which I feel I have already wrought. Will I beable to reconcieve what once was and bring my essence forthwith onto a canvas knowing that from years of neglect, the hand and eye no nonger conjoin in the symmetry that once was an intuitional prowess? Will I yet beable to fabricate some form of dignification and formulate a career out of six lost years?

Will I ever be a whole being again?

Will I ever say the acronym that begiled my life for so long?

I cast the stone into the water and bequeath its mark upon the ripples of eternity, forever never reapeating the name...MMORG

this is a true story, and I do need help.

Delete it all! Don't be a bush! Do it right now! Don't fu[b][/b]cking wait, and don't look back. It's not over till it's no longer on your hard drive.

Take the extra time you gain, to learn how to spell all those big words.

You can thank me later.

Whom, exactly, do you ask to forgive you, you sniveling cu[/i]nt? For fu[i]ck's sake, put down the thesaurus and go talk to your wife. It's amazing you have one, you loser.

Oh, and to help you break your overwrought addiction, you should never, ever frequent message boards on game sites.

Go on, now. Shoo.

Wow. It is ironic how the most obvious stares you right in the face yet you conciously don't realize it.

I graduated within the top 5% at the undergraduate level, yet I can hardly string together a cohesive sentance with correct spelling and punctuation.



My creative writing professor said the same thing. It was meant to be "flowery". The premise was an attempt to use an overt sense of drama to humorize the subject. Um, yes, bottom line, I have an gaming addiction and it is ****** up. Does that sum it up for you on a more understandable level?

let me know if I spelled any of this wrong too

Actually, you might. I noticed I went from 2.69 to 2.06 in this one post.

Give me a few more to hit sub default and I'll be but a memory.

Naw, I'll just come back reincarnate and continue my haunt

That was someone rating that particular post a 1.00. I haven't rated anyhting in the thread. you would notice if i had.

Sure, why not?

Is this another one of those coming out of the closet threads?

Massively Multiplayer Online Role Game? Never heard of it.




ZING!

my eyes hurt a bit after reading that dinosoric post but i think i understand it.

the problem with posting such deep and personal things on a forum is you never know how people are gonna react and whether they will be comforting, mocking or the odd commentator, this is the kind of thing that you need to have a real 1 on 1 with someone about, my personal opinion is that marriage has plenty more longlivety and fulfillment in it than any game (or any other type of addiction for that matter) could offer.

I'm also addicted.....





































to boobies!