Tourette's syndrome personal account part 1: ConsFollow

God damnit, I just have to be one of the very few kids in my school with Tourette's syndrome, what a fu[/b]cking gyp.

You'd think that at least in a mildly "accepting" society a person with Tourette's syndrome wouldn't stand out so goddamn much, but sadly no. You yell and twitch a little and suddenly you're some sort of freak, I hate this sh[b]it.


Also, at school, my verbal tic really gets to me. I yell out random things, and as of late, cusses. For example I'll just be walking down the class hallway and suddenly yell out: "MY *** IS BLEEDING!, HOLY ****!!" Some laugh, some get nervous, and some just plain stare. Looking at it realistically, I understand I'm creating a scene, and I realize it is frightening, and I know it looks funny, but at least don't call me a freak or a fu[/b]ckhead, those are feelings about myself I try very hard to suppress.

I went to the Grocery store the other day, and my my motor tic was acting up, so I was twitching like hell. The worst part isn't the twitching, it's just the way you can see people staring at you in the corner of your eye, and see people whisper to each other and so on, it's embarassing. Look peoples, if you are curious, don't stare and look away ashamed when I turn my head, don't whisper to other people about it, just [b]just ask me, give me some fu[b][/b]cking closure here.


Here, I'll even answer some FAQs for you curious types:


Q: Are you some sort of monster or something?
A: No, I am normal, I can actually be pretty nice at times.

Q: Why don't you try to stop your twitches and outbursts?
A: Because it feels like I'll explode when I try, it's almost like holding my breath.

Q: Is life hard with Tourette's Syndrome?
A: It's troublesome, but not hard. I wouldn't be able to compare it to something like a physical disablilty, but it is a pain.

Q: Is it hard to socialize with Tourette's syndrome?
A: In some ways it has brought some positive attention to me, and has served as an icebreaker, and I get a little slack and sympathy. The toher side of it is that ignorant people, and people who don't know me might get a bad impression. Also, it's a little hard to get together and date with girls when your tics act up. I believe it'd serve me better socially if I didnt have it.

Q: Do you scream at small children?
A: I try incredibly hard to avoid doing that.




So yeah, discuss and stuff.

Sounds like Fu[i][/i]ck you! somebody needs a hug.

cu[i][/i]nt

Is this supposed to make you less mediocre?

Someone else thought what I was thinking! Yays!!oneone.

Retards need friends too jackass.

/Hi jack

MentalFrog, I saw that episode of FamilyGuy that your avatard came from last night. (The mind-control cheerleader one where Peter learns he's 'black'. When I saw the scene in your avatard, I laughed and told my wife (as she walked by) that some guy from the forum had that scene as his avatard and she looked at me funny.

Elderon

I stopped telling any stories or jokes about the forum. And sometimes when I tell jokes I leave out the part of where I heard it from. People look at you funny and ask "where?, who?, what?".

Fu[/i]ck! A[i]ss!

He knows too much!