School BluesFollow

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I just finished up my 3rd year of school with one and half years to go. I don't think I'm going back, at least not right away.

I've always done well in school, it was always assumed that I would goto University or College. When I was close to finishing highschool it became apparent that I was going to have to pay my way through and that my parents would only be able to provide minimal support. So I got a job and worked like a dog for two years and saved up. Then when I did goto school I worked practically full time while going to school full time. Thus year three and no loans or debt.

3 years later I'm burnt out. I know the material front and back but I'm bored with it and my grades are slipping. The thought of another year of school actually makes me feel physically ill. I mentioned taking a year or a half year break to wind down and save up some more money and everyone acted like it was the end of the world.

Then there is the job. I have an extremely well paying, flexible job that pays my way through university. I hate it. I know everyone hates their job, thats why its a job. However I don't just hate my job I despise it. I walk into the place and I feel sad. I intimated that I was looking for another job maybe something that pays less but I would be able to tolerate more. Once again the family went crazy. "How could you even think of giving up that job!!!" kind of deal.

So I hate my job and I hate school which is a pretty big chunk of my life. The usual laid back fun and friendly Bhodisattva that everyone knows is now a recluse, grumpy, surly, and all round not his normal self (as some of you might have noticed on the forum). I am faced with the age old dilemma of doing what others want and being unhappy or doing what I want and having to let a lot of people down. There really is no dilemma I am going to do what I want but I am fully aware of what is coming my way when I do it and I am not looking forward to it in the least. I'm also terribly worried of "where do I go from here" since I have no clue what I want to do, where I want to go, what is going to happen.

I told my family that I wasnt going back to school firmly and they have been almost in denial acting like I am joking. Once the move in with the girlfriend is done and everything is settled and payed for I am quitting my job and not looking back.

Yes I know this post has no point, yes I know most people dont care but f[/b]uck it I needed to get things off my chest and since I consider the Asylum to be my own personal journal Iam going to post it. Any haters can f[b]uck off and eat a d[b][/b]ick.

Sounds like you need to take time and decide what you want.

Your family suffers from the fear that you are throwing away opportunities. You may be. You may not. Many who take breaks from school because they're sick of it never finish.


Periodically, I contemplate giving up the monetary worries and responsibilities. I sandbag my $$ and I could just walk away from it all for a year or two if I didn't go on spending sprees. In the end, I always decide that I like having those worries and responsibilities.

Your situation isn't exactly the same as what I related, but the frustrations of sameness are there. For me, the answer always comes easiest when I have a heart to heart with myself and don't leave off the subject without making a clear decision.


Of course my biggest fear is that if I ever stop working, I'll never manage to get my sorry *** back started. Lopez is a lazy man!

Where do you work?

Freudian?

and Bhod

get back to school you work-shy fop!

One and a half years to go? The blink of an eye.

It's your life so do what works for you. In the end only you have to deal with the consequences.

Quit your job if you hate it, get a job you like even if it pays crap, go into debt to pay your tuition but get your degree. It will never be any easier than it is right now. Seriously, don't pass it up, not after the 3 years you have already put in.

yup. Pretty much all of that.

I got my degree, worked through it all too. It sucked, but I made it through just fine.

Now I'm going back, halfway through my Master's degree. It amazing how much difference a few years makes, but it is SO much harder now.

I have a mortgage, wife, two cars, bunch of other bills. Plus working all the time and two classes.

Take a loan, win the lotto, stuff envelopes, or become an at home telemarketer (added plus of being able to play MMO's while you work)...do what you have to do, but get your degree done now. You'll regret it bigtime if you don't!

How you feel about returning to school probably won't compare to how much more that feeling will increase once you actually quit. Everyone else is right, you'll find too many other things to do than school.

I agree the thing to do is to let the job go and finish school. Since you say you despise it I think that would let off a good deal of stress for you and make school at least a little less disgusting to you. Finding a new job later on isn't as hard as hauling your *** back to school.

I've been working since my freshman year in college and 8 years later I'm on my 8th job. The job I have now has some pretty awful pay, but after working at some jobs that I completely despised and hated, I've found that job satisfaction is what makes life better. My job now may not pay well, but the people I work with are so awesome and friendly, my days and weeks fly by like nothing, and I'm learning a ton about a business I'd never have thought I'd get into while I was in school. Yet my mood is incredibly different. It amazes me how much a good job you're happy at can change how good you feel from day to day.

I'd aim for more happiness while still achieving your degree. I honestly think that will make you feel a whole lot better when you wake up each morning.

Edited, Fri Aug 19 11:46:34 2005 by Pikko

Bhodi, i'm guessing there isn't much more I can say since most of the people you joke with all day have already said it. Whatever you choose though, do it for yourself. Stop worrying about how much you will disappoint everyone else. Don't go with the mentality of "Fuck you all!" though, that would be bad. Take every piece of advice you get with a grain of salt and decide which direction to point your life in.


If you choose to go back to school, try to do something there outside of studying to keep your interest.Quit your job and join up for sports or something. Even if you need to take out a loan, it isn't the end of the world. It's just money. You shouldn't sacrifice your sanity and mental health for it.

Go get your degree. Just suck it up.

I did mine in four years at a military college. It sucked. Just take it a day at a time, an hour if need be.

But even if not, just look out for yourself... if you can't make it through... find somthing you enjoy.

I'm enjoying my job so far.

Course I only graduated 3 months ago.

Good luck.

fhrugby, great suggestion.

Lots of people where I went did that.

Most of them came back.

Some of them got stoned in mexico (on weed, not rocks thrown) and then we never heard from them again...

A lot of people seem to think taking a half year to a year of your schooling is a bad idea. I don't really understand why. Just because they had a hard time going back doesn’t mean you will. Do you think you can/will go back after this break? If you do, this might be a good decision for you.

I get burned out as well. I work and go to school full time. I took a year off and am now more motivated then ever. My current SO did the same. Another close friend of mine took a full year off to go to France as an au-pair, and wouldn’t have done it differently.

While I agree that getting your degree done should be, to say the least, an extremely high priority, I also think that this time in your life is a time to enjoy. Take a short break and work on something you enjoy. Take out student loans as quick as possible also. At least you’ll only have one and a half years to pay off and not a full 4 or 5. Try and get yourself a crappy, low responsibility, part time job that pays some of your fun time. And, for God’s sake man, try to relax.