You live because you have yet to over come your self preservation instinct...
Maslow's hierarchy of needs explain what people strive for...
Its all harded coded into your brain,
the need
) Physiological: hunger, thirst, bodily comforts, etc.;
2) Safety/security: out of danger;
3) Belonginess and Love: affiliate with others, be accepted; and
4) Esteem: to achieve, be competent, gain approval and recognition.
since harming or giving up on life would cause you to harm your self, your brains natural defenses kick in, inducing fear, and you will most likely break out in a sweat or cry
I have attemted to over come it, but was stopped by police.
(dam you bastards, where'd you hide my morphine?)
In truth the reason I strive is because there is a goal, something to obtain,
happiness
This could be acconplished by having rampant sex, or me telling all the rating trolls they are stupid,
but happiness is a very fickle thing and I will be lucky if I ever find it for long periods of time.
try reading
The Futile Pursuit or Happiness, jon gertner
Edited, Tue Nov 16 23:15:30 2004 by mageoflibra