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It's annoying as hell. I'm not even sure WHY it's annoying. I just feel like I'm letting "it" happen to me, whatever "it" is. I miss going out with my friends and partying until sunrise, I miss having fun and not stressing over everything.
I sit here every night and do the exact same routine. My boyfriend comes home from work. He plays FFXI for a while whilst I watch TV. One of us makes dinner. We eat our meal, then watch a movie. He goes to bed, I browse the internet for an hour or two and then I go to bed. Repeat. Ad nauseum. Every single day is the exact same thing. I want to go out to a pub or something but then I think about it and can't justify "wasting the money". I haven't taken any sort of illicit substance in three years. I haven't gotten good and drunk in over a year. I haven't danced in two years. But I do the dishes every ******* day. How do you get through this? At what point will I become "comfortable" with my settled and uneventful existence? Seriously, I think about it and want to cry. I feel like I'm wasting my life on stupid **** like deciding what laundry detergent is the best bargain.
I don't WANT to be settled. It's like I've let myself become numb to life. I don't even TRY to go out and have fun anymore. And then every once in a while it's like I wake up for a moment and wonder how the hell I got here.
Sorry to go all deep and serious, I'm just going through a really rough spot right now and it's left me questioning who I even am.
Hmm, I'm 27 and you sound just like me. I never really did drugs or got drunk, but I used to dance, go out with friends, and just generally do interesting things *all* the time. I never do now. I'm married, live in a nice house in a peaceful section of the city, do housework and yardwork, struggle to pay my bills, and generally wonder when I got so old and boring and what happened to all the dreams and goals I used to have for myself. I don't really have an answer for you (hell, I don't have one for me either), but I hope it makes you feel a little better to know that your situation isn't that uncommon.
It's f*cking frustrating, isn't it?